All The Feels
Posted: Fri Dec 16, 2022 6:14 am
I had a breakthrough in my running yesterday afternoon that reminded me of the central quest I had in playing from about 13 years old to about 22.
During a music camp, in a junior high school summer, I attended one of the weekly faculty recitals. As I sat there listening to the brass teachers, it became evident that they all had the ability to make their playing sound effortless and it was easy to see that they also were physically relaxed.
Somehow my 13 year old self recognized that as something important and I spent the next 10 or so years trying to get that sound when I played and also to get what I thought the corresponding feeling should be.
Eventually, somewhere between graduating university and a year or two into an orchestra gig it finally happened.
There are muscles active to keep me standing, to hold the horn and to control breathing, but the overall feeling is that the horn isn't really there a lot of the time, and my body is in a neutral state.
Does this describe how other's here experience playing? The mistake my 13 year old self made was not asking the teachers how they felt while playing. I went off on a quest based on an assumption. I could be the only one trying to feel like everything is relaxed and flowing and not actively pushing the sound out.
During a music camp, in a junior high school summer, I attended one of the weekly faculty recitals. As I sat there listening to the brass teachers, it became evident that they all had the ability to make their playing sound effortless and it was easy to see that they also were physically relaxed.
Somehow my 13 year old self recognized that as something important and I spent the next 10 or so years trying to get that sound when I played and also to get what I thought the corresponding feeling should be.
Eventually, somewhere between graduating university and a year or two into an orchestra gig it finally happened.
There are muscles active to keep me standing, to hold the horn and to control breathing, but the overall feeling is that the horn isn't really there a lot of the time, and my body is in a neutral state.
Does this describe how other's here experience playing? The mistake my 13 year old self made was not asking the teachers how they felt while playing. I went off on a quest based on an assumption. I could be the only one trying to feel like everything is relaxed and flowing and not actively pushing the sound out.